Nutural ground

I blog to get my feelings out. I blog when I am frustrated, angry, happy bored.....you get the picture.  As anyone who has/had a blog at efx2 knows, there where issues with the place. I'm not even going to pretend I understand enough about computers to use the proper words...the on again off again, sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't thing. I don't think I'm the only one that said bad things about the place and even used a swear word or two about it. Some directed at Kieth (since he was the maker)

Frustration from lack of information as to if/when Keith might be around to fix something....grumblings about a mystery man named Martin holding keys to the castle......You bet I was frustrated and angry about being left in the dark and I blogged about it....I even said a few times I'm going to quit blogging and may have even said "this is the last time!" I felt dupped...grant you I only pitched in a few bucks...it's all I could afford, but when Keith dissapeared with no explanation, I felt like I was taken advantage of.....My feelings right or wrong.

At the time I wrote the blog, those were my feelings....and I am entitled to them!

Now at Efx3. The new place. I understand that it is underconstruction. The people involved in making the place have done more work then I ever could....heck I couldn't even figure out where to go in my e-mail spam folder to go look for the e-mail reply that was sent but some how never made it in my actual e-mail in box (efx3 is'n't the only e-mail I've lost, I never get the ones from my employer either) But some how after a very public flogging over a blog written critisizing the place......I'm not real sure if that is the environment I want to be in. I would like to think my blog is where I can write whatever I want to...leave comments on it if you don't agree, but don't drag it on to the front page.

I'm writing this post in nutural territory because I don't want what I write to get deleted..... But I do have a few concerns about the new place that keeps me from going "all in".

first...like Kieth. this new efx is hobby, now for two people, what happens when real life gets in the way or the pressure gets to be to much? I know it is free...quit bitchin' seems to be the war cry as of late, But I'm getting tired of making/breaking ties to people I grow fond of thru blogs.

second.....Other attempts failed or fell to the wayside....efx2.info comes to mind. It started as a gung-ho, lets get this place up and running in no time place too...But stuff happens and the progress came to a stop. I understand........but I still can't find my way around there, I'm still frustrated as hell with the place I still don't know how to make it look pretty.......and won't be going back.....doesn't mean I didn't apreciate all the hard work everyone over there did.......it means I got mad. I blogged about it and I moved on.  I think I wrote pretty much the same rant when I tried to move to Blogger the first time efx crashed...I even referred to the template as looking like I was visitning my Grandmother's house and the service as being about as freindly as a visit to the DMV...I think I said a few more harsh things about them too. 

I almost feel like my blog will be monotored and if a speak badly about the wrong thing I might be in the target too. I'm starting to think it's time to take a break and let the dust settle...........................